People are always telling me that I look more matured compared to other guys of the same age. Well, I don’t care because I never dreamt of having a baby face. Whether my looks fit my age or not, what matters most is how valuable I spent the past years of my life, how I overcome the challenges, and how I can make more fucking awesome experiences and learning in the succeeding days, weeks, months, and years.
Goodbye and thank you, teenage life. Here I am and I am going to make most out of of you, 20s!
I thought of having reflections and fashion this birthday blog post in a retrospective manner. But I just did that a while ago and I have decided to just keep the thoughts in me. What I want to highlight is the “so, what now?”
Because what I want is to keep moving forward. I want to pull myself together. I want to make something different. So I decided to make a list of the things I want to do on my entire 20-year-old-life.
1. Finish my thesis. Oh, God. It has been almost a year since I started working on this. I also changed my topic several times. By August or September 2014, I hope I can carry a hardbound manuscript with my name printed on it.
2. Get published. I believe that the research I’m doing is valuable, not only to my academics, but also to the community. I just want to contribute to the current intellectual debates, to bring something different on the table, and help people concerned. More personally, I want to prove something to myself.
3. Travel alone. I want to find a part of me, though I don’t know what it is. We always crave for something. I think it’s human nature to get hungry of knowing oneself better and find answers through adventure. I want to explore the life’s possibilities and nature’s offer. I want to get lost in a place I have never been gone to; to a place where I can commune with nature; to a place where I can found a piece of shit in me.
4. Start to make a living. It’s my dream to work with the UN (well, I think everyone does). That’s why I conducted my internship in one of the UN offices here in the Philippines. I was just thinking it might be a good start.
5. Reconnect with old friends. I always want to make it up to them, especially to my high school friends. I’m excited to have a very interesting conversation with them and see how their philosophy changed through time. I’m excited to see them after four years!
So as of 3 May 2014, these are the major goals that I want to accomplish before 3 May 2015. If you find them too simple, for me these are sooo complex. Given that life is so chaotic and unpredictable, things might just emerge in an instant. So I have also decided to update this list whenever I wanted to (even a minute before 3 May 2015!).
And oh, I forgot to thank all of you, whether you’re my friend or not, you know me or not, or I know you or not, because in one way or another, I believe you’ve become part of who I am now.